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Just As I Am Kindle Edition

by Lynn Jaxon (Author) Format: Kindle Edition
4.5 out of 5 stars 112 ratings
Drowning In Total Darkness…..She Became My Light.

Benson~
I was a man who had it all. The perfect wife, terrific children, a beautiful home and my own business. Em and I were on top of the world. Until...we heard the word inoperable cancer. My entire world came crumbling down around me. I was losing my best friend, the love of my life. My new best friend became a bottle of bourbon. I am now a shell of a man drowning in my pain.

Marley~
Watching my best friend fade before my eyes is almost more than I can take. Em and I have been friends since nursing school. I never dreamed when I received that call that I would be here taking care of her, watching her vibrance wither away before my eyes. We had to say goodbye way too soon, but I made her a promise and I intend to keep it. I refuse to let him drown in his sorrows. I only wanted to pull him from the darkness, keep my promise, but life has other plans.



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    278 pages
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    April 5, 2019
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  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B07QFHPZ5B
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  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ April 5, 2019
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • File size ‏ : ‎ 631 KB
  • Screen Reader ‏ : ‎ Supported
  • Enhanced typesetting ‏ : ‎ Enabled
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  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 278 pages
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  • Best Sellers Rank: #3,431,974 in Kindle Store (See Top 100 in Kindle Store)
  • Customer Reviews:
    4.5 out of 5 stars 112 ratings

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Lynn Jaxon

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Lynn Jaxon lives with her husband and three children in Arkansas. She graduated in 1994 from the University of Central Arkansas. When she’s not writing, she is spending time with her husband, children, and grandchildren, reading in a bubble bath or running with her crazy dog.

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Customers find this book emotionally engaging, with one mentioning tears of joy and sorrow throughout. The writing quality receives positive feedback, with customers describing it as beautifully written. They appreciate the story, with one customer noting how it adds depth to the narrative.

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Customers find the book emotionally engaging, describing it as a tear-jerker that is full of love, with one customer noting it evokes both joy and sorrow.

"...I love how the story plays out and mends the broken hearts, including my own." Read more

"...book was done really well, it had a heartbreaking storyline, angst **need kleenex**, hot sex scenes and just a really good story...." Read more

"“Lynn Jaxon has written an emotionally addicting debut!” The story of Benson and Emily is an extremely emotional story...." Read more

"...I became engrossed in their lives, joy and love. My soul was shattered. I cried along with Em, Marley, Mitch and Harry, I sobbed with Benson...." Read more

7 customers mention "Writing quality"7 positive0 negative

Customers praise the writing quality of the book, describing it as beautifully written, with one customer noting the outstanding editing.

"...This beautifully written book tells the story of how a husband goes on, after losing his one and only love...." Read more

"...Lynn’s debut is going to make you cry, but the characters are worth it. Grab your box of tissues and enjoy this outstanding debut." Read more

"Lynn Jaxon took me by the hand and led me into the lives of incredible characters. In reading her words I fell in love with Benson and Em.,..." Read more

"...I sobbed my way through most of this story and fell in love with the writing and characters...." Read more

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Customers enjoy the story of the book, with one mentioning how it adds another layer to the narrative.

"...She also adds another layer to the story with Em's bestfriend Marley who is there to witness it all...." Read more

"...This book was done really well, it had a heartbreaking storyline, angst **need kleenex**, hot sex scenes and just a really good story...." Read more

"...This story is full of love and sadness. It's a beautiful story that will rip you apart and put you right back together...." Read more

"...have read many many books... I must say this is one of the best stories i have ever read...." Read more

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  • Sean
    5.0 out of 5 stars Beautifully Written!!
    Reviewed in the United States on August 28, 2019
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    I stumbled across Just As I Am by Lynn Jaxon and after reading the synopsis, I decided to give this author a chance even though I had hundreds of books waiting to be read.

    Just As I Am tells the story of a family's life as it is ripped apart by the ugly, devastating word nobody wants to hear, cancer. I immediately fell in love with Benson and his wife Emily and all too soon you are surrounded in grief and you experience their loss as a reader.

    Lynn Jaxon tackles love, loss, heartache as this family falls apart and slowly rebuilds. She also adds another layer to the story with Em's bestfriend Marley who is there to witness it all. I love how the story plays out and mends the broken hearts, including my own.
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  • Penny L
    5.0 out of 5 stars Outstanding debut
    Reviewed in the United States on April 12, 2019
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    If I could give this book more than five stars, I definitely would. This beautifully written book tells the story of how a husband goes on, after losing his one and only love. Em and Benson have just celebrated twenty-five years of marriage, when they get devasting news. Em doesn’t want chemo or radiation because she wants to enjoy what little time she has left. I won’t tell you what happens after she passes, but I will say have tissues ready. This book will take you on a roller coaster ride, but even after you read the last page, you will remember Benson. I couldn’t believe this was Lynn Jaxon’s debut novel. She did an amazing job and the editing was outstanding.
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  • Kindle Customer
    4.0 out of 5 stars Broken and sweet.....
    Reviewed in the United States on April 21, 2019
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    The first part of this book broke me...The love Emily and Benson had was an amazing thing to witness. And just a statement of fact DUCK CANCER!! Would of said the other word but didn't want the Zon to kick out my review.
    I really liked Marleys character and the end of this book. Not going to give it away.
    This book was done really well, it had a heartbreaking storyline, angst **need kleenex**, hot sex scenes and just a really good story.
    I recommend this book.
    Thanks Jamie Nibarger Ellis
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  • Jillian J
    5.0 out of 5 stars Beyond exceptional debut!
    Reviewed in the United States on September 20, 2019
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    “Lynn Jaxon has written an emotionally addicting debut!”

    The story of Benson and Emily is an extremely emotional story. Emily’s battle with cancer will have you in tears, but you have to keep reading. To find a true soulmate and then to lose that person is heartbreaking. Although over time Marley and Benson learn to rely on the one constant factor, they both lost their best friend.

    As with anything, time can help dull the pain. Although the pain is always there, with the right person who understands exactly how you feel life can move on. Change, but never forget.

    Lynn’s debut is going to make you cry, but the characters are worth it. Grab your box of tissues and enjoy this outstanding debut.
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  • theresa willett
    5.0 out of 5 stars Phenomenal
    Reviewed in the United States on April 10, 2019
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    Lynn Jaxon took me by the hand and led me into the lives of incredible characters. In reading her words I fell in love with Benson and Em., I became engrossed in their lives, joy and love. My soul was shattered. I cried along with Em, Marley, Mitch and Harry, I sobbed with Benson. As I continued the journey my broken heart was sewn back together in life, love and the belief in new beginnings. Thank you Lynn, congratulations on a mind blowing first book. I’m gonna love you forever.
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  • Susan C. Vallese
    3.0 out of 5 stars Just As I Am
    Reviewed in the United States on August 6, 2019
    I know I'm in the minority here giving Just As I Am three stars, but please know from the start, I think that Lynn Jaxon has a lot of potential. This book was done pretty well- I liked Benson, and I truly felt the love he had for his wife, Emily. The beginning of this book was so heartfelt, and I cried (I love to cry, too, so this was a good thing). It was the second half of the book that I think went downhill for me a bit. Things between Benson and Marley just progressed too quickly for me- I didn't feel as if Benson had enough time to really mourn Emily. And the kids seem to move on quickly, as well.

    Again, I liked the book, and will definitely be on the lookout for more from Lynn Jaxon.
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  • One_More_Chapter
    5.0 out of 5 stars Break out the Kleenex
    Reviewed in the United States on June 4, 2019
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    Break out the Kleenex cause the first half of this book will gut you. Don't throw your kindle across the room, 'cause when you get done ugly crying, there's a still a HEA in sight. Lynn Jackson brings all the feels as she shows us one cannot have the light without first living in the dark. Solid start for Lynn Jackson's debut book that leaves me looking forward to what's up next.
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  • Jaime Reynolds
    5.0 out of 5 stars Must have tissues
    Reviewed in the United States on July 30, 2019
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    I started this story and finished in one night. I couldn’t put it down. I sobbed my way through most of this story and fell in love with the writing and characters. Such an emotional and uplifting read that will stick with me for a long time. This is one of the best reads of 2019 for me and I highly recommend everyone read this.
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  • Alison
    4.0 out of 5 stars Moving
    Reviewed in Australia on April 11, 2019
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    Wow this book was filled with emotions! I loved that you got to fall in love with both couples but life doesn't always turn out the way you planned & I truly hope that if you lose your first true love that you can find it again
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  • Zoeb
    5.0 out of 5 stars All the hotness with a good old ugly cry thrown in.
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on July 24, 2019
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    What a debut this is for Lynn Jaxon, she’s gone right in with all the hotness, then pulling your heart right out of your chest for a good old ugly cry.

    But this is also a HEA.

    A book of 2 stories, both fill with Love and so much sadness too all surrounding Benson.

    Just when you think you have everything you’ve ever wanted and worked so hard for, to have your world ripped right out in front of you with very little warning, and not a thing you can do to stop it.

    How do you mend when you have lost half of yourself.

    This is a rollercoaster of a journey with a twist.
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  • Jacqueline Cuthbert
    4.0 out of 5 stars Tear jerker
    Reviewed in Australia on April 25, 2019
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    First time I read this author but omg what a fabulous book very emotional you will defiantly need tissues how one person handles grief and has the help of family and friends and his late wife’s best friend become lovers
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  • Jojo
    5.0 out of 5 stars So good I couldn't put it down
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on May 27, 2019
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    I read this book in one day. It was a great story where you really got to know the characters when their backgrounds. It was like reading two books. But I loved Em,Benson,and Marley. I laughed out loud and ugly fried and fell a little bit in love.
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  • Addicted2Romance
    3.0 out of 5 stars Emotional reading
    Reviewed in Australia on June 17, 2019
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    -Warning alert - You will need tissues-
    This was such an emotional story I wanted to put it down to recover but I kept on turning the pages.
    When Benson loses Em his life long soul mate he drowns in his own self loathing while her best friend Marley only wants to help him he keeps her at arms length when he starts having feelings for her.
    Although I liked this book it was a see through storyline and quite honestly dragged on a bit but it had a happy ending
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