You met Ryder Richardson in Being Sawyer Knight. Now, this is his story.

I've done it. I've stuck a whopping two fingers up at my parents, I've made a name for myself as one of the world's biggest porn stars and I've finally found a family I belong in.

Life is amazing. I get paid to do all my favourite things.

And then he comes along. Mason George – Back Door Studio's newest exclusive model and the guy who has the potential to either mess it all up, or take me on the best ride of my life.

~ Ryder


I'm desperate. I've got nothing and nobody left. Entering the daunting world of adult entertainment is less of a dream and more of a necessity. Signing as Back Door Studio's latest model has the ability to either ruin or make me, but I made a vow at my first audition never to let myself regret it.

I continue to question myself each day, but no amount of whats, whys or what ifs will change where I am or where I'm heading. Am I strong enough to do this? To embrace it? To enjoy it? I have no idea.

The only thing I'm certain of, is that if anyone can teach me who I'm supposed to be, it's Ryder Richardson.

~ Mason





(M/M romance. Not recommended for under 18's due to language and sexual content. Please note, this book contains scenes of self harm which may be uncomfortable for people experiencing similar issues.)