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On a Different Mission: A Rockstar Bi-Awakening Gay Romance (Rock U Book 1) Kindle Edition

by Christie Gordon (Author) Format: Kindle Edition
4.3 out of 5 stars 395 ratings

I sing to survive, and he’s never been with a man. When he looks at me, it’s everything.


Devin
I hadn’t planned on falling for anyone, especially him.
After escaping a suffocating Mormon past, I built a new life—working at a queer-owned bakery,
singing in a band, embracing skirts and eyeliner like armor.
Then Brandon walks into my world with his shy smiles and stammered compliments.
I can't look away.
He says he’s never been with a guy. But every time his eyes linger, every time our fingers brush, I wonder…is he just curious, or as lost as I am?
I want him. But I’m not sure where to start.
All I know is, my heart races when he’s around.

Brandon
I was just trying to get through college.
Keep my head down, finish my degree, and figure out the rest later.
Then Devin appears—in eyeliner and combat boots, belting out lyrics with a voice that cracks something open in me.
He takes my breath away.
I’ve never let myself act on an attraction to a man.
But Devin? He’s different. He makes me want to push past the doubt and fear.
And even though I’m fumbling through every new feeling, I can’t stay away.
I just hope I’m strong enough to be the man he deserves.

On a Different Mission is the first book in the Rock U series and a spin-off of the Mesa Boys series. It follows the growing popularity of a college rock band and showcases each band member’s quest to reach their HEA. This novel features gender and bisexual awakenings, hurt/comfort, and rockers with found family. Each book features a different couple and can be read as a standalone or as part of the series in order.

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On a Different Mission: A Rockstar Bi-Awakening Gay Romance (Rock U Book 1)
Come Closer to Me: A Rockstar Brother's Best Friend MM Romance (Rock U Book 2)
Never Let It End: A Rockstar Age Gap MM Romance (Rock U Book 3)
Light Me Up: A Rockstar Grumpy/Sunshine MM Romance (Rock U Book 4)
Protect My Heart: A Rockstar Bodyguard Bi-Awakening MM Romance (Rock U Book 5)
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  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B0BR4TZK6Z
  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ Christie Gordon Publishing
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  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ February 24, 2023
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • File size ‏ : ‎ 1.7 MB
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  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 340 pages
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  • Book 1 of 6 ‏ : ‎ Rock U
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Christie Gordon is the author of steamy, heartfelt gay romance novels that explore the emotional journey of men discovering themselves and finding love. It all started when she stumbled upon MM fanfiction by accident—and let's just say, it was love at first read. Inspired by the genre's mix of passion and complexity, Christie transitioned from reading about men in love to writing her own stories. After taking fiction writing classes at a local community college, she published her first MM romance novel in 2009 with a small press, and she’s never looked back.

When she’s not writing, Christie watches boys-love dramas, creates digital art, or is serenaded by her snoring one-eyed rescue pug. A graduate of both Electrical Engineering (BS) and Business Administration (MBA), she spends her "day job" navigating the high-tech world, but her heart belongs to the characters who live in her books. Christie currently resides in the Phoenix metro area, though she’s also lived in California’s Bay Area and Minnesota (which probably explains her deep love of pumpkin spiced latte coffees and hockey).

She’s also the proud mother of two young-adult sons who provide plenty of material for stories—usually in the form of chaotic shenanigans. But no matter what, Christie’s always up for a new adventure, whether it's on the page or in the real world.

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Customers find the book's story engaging, with one mentioning it's a sweet tale of self-discovery. The romance receives positive feedback, with one customer noting how the characters find acceptance and love, while another describes the relationship as beautiful.

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Customers enjoy the story quality of the book, with one customer describing it as a sweet tale of self-discovery that heals, while another finds it beautiful and uplifting.

"...The story was seamless and you could really feel connected to the MMCs. I can't wait to read more." Read more

"...Breaks my heart but this story healed it all up. Brandon had never ending patience and love for Devin...." Read more

"Their story is really beautiful! I switched between reading on my kindle and listening to the audiobook. I loved it!..." Read more

"...It's romantic, steamy, and uplifting! I highly recommend it!" Read more

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Customers enjoy the romance in the book, with one review noting how the characters find acceptance and love, while another describes the relationship as beautiful.

"...And Brandon is 💯 boyfriend material. He was unapologetically simping for Devin. So cute...." Read more

"The characters were so well developed, they felt like friends by the end. Devin and Brandon love each other so much. Their relationship is beautiful...." Read more

"...Devin learns to love who he is and finds people who accept and love him. It's romantic, steamy, and uplifting! I highly recommend it!" Read more

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  • Amanda Varner
    5.0 out of 5 stars Heartwarming story
    Reviewed in the United States on November 16, 2024
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    This is my first book from this author and I really enjoyed it. The story was seamless and you could really feel connected to the MMCs. I can't wait to read more.
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  • Golden Child
    4.0 out of 5 stars Devin & Brandon
    Reviewed in the United States on March 6, 2024
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    Very sweet book about guys finding who they are when they go out of their comfort zone and try new things. Asking out a guy, trying gender fluid things, deciding to showcase talents in a new way. It amazes me the feelings that are brought forward when a MC realizes he really feels cared for in what could be a long time or the first time. Breaks my heart but this story healed it all up. Brandon had never ending patience and love for Devin. But his patience wasn’t necessary, Devin deserved all Brandon could give him and vice-versa. Looking forward to the next in the series.
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  • Amanda
    5.0 out of 5 stars Devin and Brandon
    Reviewed in the United States on May 13, 2024
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    Their story is really beautiful! I switched between reading on my kindle and listening to the audiobook. I loved it! I really enjoyed how fast and hard Brandon fell for Devin. Also, hello spice. I wasn't expecting that because Devin was raised Mormon. I thought it would be a little subdued but it wasn't at all. And Brandon is 💯 boyfriend material. He was unapologetically simping for Devin. So cute.
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  • G
    5.0 out of 5 stars Loved it.
    Reviewed in the United States on February 25, 2024
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    I really enjoyed this book. I’m a fan of stories about guys in bands, whether it be indie/punk/rock, or an idol group. On a Different Mission did not disappoint. I’m looking forward to reading the rest of the series and getting to know the other boys in the band better.

    Devin and Brandon are lovely. This book has a lot of sexy times and soft moments, and it was just nice. Devin’s on a journey of self-discovery with his sexuality and gender, and has a lot of doubts concerning his religious family; Brandon is his biggest cheerleader, but far from his only one. And Brandon? Is a giant cinnamon roll. I wish there was more of his background and bi-awakening, though.

    As a Phoenix metro native, it was nice to be immersed into the story at certain locations with the characters. Also, Knot Me’s members bringing up how Chester Bennington went to high school in AZ made me laugh, because I knew so many people who did the same thing.
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  • John White
    5.0 out of 5 stars Sweet story about self-discovery with, of course, an HEA
    Reviewed in the United States on October 22, 2023
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    I read a lot of MM books of various levels of steam, and I find myself more interested in the personal interactions and/or the mysteries of the characters and the plot than the graphic sex.

    But this one had me squirming! Maybe it hit some of my own buttons, but it was sweet, exploratory, consensual, and very steamy, and I actually read through many of the bedroom scenes with interest.

    If the rest of the story was somewhat Pandora-ish - everything works out because of course it does - then that's fine, because there's enough angst and pain in the real world and so why not read about HEAs for sweet, lovable MCs like these?
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  • Ashley C.
    5.0 out of 5 stars Loved them
    Reviewed in the United States on January 14, 2024
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    The characters were so well developed, they felt like friends by the end. Devin and Brandon love each other so much. Their relationship is beautiful. This is one of my new favorite books!
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  • Djw
    4.0 out of 5 stars Self discovery
    Reviewed in the United States on May 29, 2024
    “I might have to step off that stage and punch a _____ if they get too close.”

    Enjoyed this series as a follow up spin-off to Mesa Boys. So glad this book followed up with Devin we meet at the end of Mesa Boys working in the bakery and Brandon brother to one from the other series as well. This is coming of age and exploration for both Devin and Brandon helping each other as they navigate through everything. Obsessing and loving each other through their self discovery.

    Another thing I loved about both series is if they have an issue they ask for help from friends and/or family and then talk about it. They work together, talk with each other, and work it out. One or both don't just go all unhinged for the book and not talk to the other one to see what's going on or seek the truth, which I suppose is a trope that annoys me. They do what they should and love each other through it all working through everything. Lots of love, deep friendships, and all the feels with both of these series.
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  • ElizaMac
    1.0 out of 5 stars Ugh
    Reviewed in the United States on April 22, 2023
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    I just…

    Like…. *deep breaths*

    This was written like the MC’s were pre-teens. They’re 22-23, and the way they talk and interact with people (who also act like children) is just… did a 13 year old write this?

    The first 30 percent of the book is non-stop moment interruptions. Like… every single scene where the MC’s interact, as soon as they get intimate, someone or something interrupts. There are few things that make me rage more than inconvenient moment interruptions because it’s a cheap plot device.

    The word “beer” was written over 200 times in a 300 page book (because they drank beer in literally every scene). In the second half alone the word “babe” was written almost 90 times (I seriously never want to read that word again). Do authors not use editors anymore? Or are AI writing the books?

    Also, one MC was not gender fluid. Nothing about him was gender fluid for 90% of the book. He never expressed that he felt like a woman. He liked feminine things and that was it… then all of a sudden he tells his mom he feels like a woman sometimes… uh… so that was new info? This plot point was just done really poorly and I wish authors informed themselves about the less common sides of sexuality and gender identity before using the word in a blurb to try to gain readers.

    And boy do we love to talk about virginity in this book! That trope has been deemed cringey years ago and this one was REALLY problematic. Also, talking about certain foods making you fat repeatedly was deemed cringey even longer ago.

    By the time I hit 80% I was sure it couldn’t get worse but the Big Conflict was so OTT and out of character and stupid and I just…. Throwing around the f-slur doesn’t make a book good ok? Good authors can write homophobia without it. I skimmed the epilogue. Gah.

    As much as I want to rage about the time wasted on this book, I will always be thankful to add another author to the DNR list. The more I narrow it down, the more I can rely on authors that are… actual authors.

    *screams internally at 2023*
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  • Natasha Featherstone
    5.0 out of 5 stars An amazing story of finding yourself
    Reviewed in Canada on May 21, 2024
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    This is the second time I've read Devon and Brandon's story. And found it just as good the second time. Devon grew up Mormon and struggled with his sexuality and who he is as a person because he was taught that being queer was wrong. With the help of Brandon, who fell in love with him, and many of Devon's fiends he made at college and the rock band he sings in, he find himself and accepts who he is. This is a west low angst love story with a HEA. I received the ARC copy for audio and found that Finnley Cole did an amazing job with narration.
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  • Nicanne
    5.0 out of 5 stars What an absolutely brilliant book!
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on November 19, 2024
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    📚Book = Standalone Book (series continues with other couples within the same world)
    💕Burn = Med,
    🎭OW/OM Drama = No,
    🐺 Alpha Men = A little when their possessiveness and protective natures kicked in!!
    🔥Heat/spice = 8/10,
    😬Angst = Low,
    🍆🌮 MM/FF = Yes, MM
    🔸POV = 1st Person, MPV,
    🔸Genre = Contemporary romance,
    🔹Tropes = MM✨A vīrgin MC✨Bisëxual & Gender awakëning✨Hurt/comfort✨Opposites attract✨ Coming out & acceptance✨A smütty MC✨Found family
    😈Kink = Brat🫦Lots of Sëx toys🫦
    ‼️Triggers = Homöphöbia❗️Prejüdiced Parents❗️ Struggles with reliğious teaching regarding sëxuąl and geňder identities.

    Wow I loved every page, it had a bit of laughter, a bit of sorrow, a bit of angst but a whole lot of love and yummy hot sëxy times 🥵 Just perfect!

    Devin was a shy supper sweet gentle soul trying to find his way and work out who he really was. He was raised in a strict Mormon family and community, so virtually his whole life had been confusing and worrying for him. He was very naive and had been sheltered a lot from the world but slowly he started to discover what he liked in his style of dress and especially who he wanted to be. All with the help of an amazing group of friends he’d gained along the way and of course his loving and supportive boyfriend Brandon. But could he be himself without loosing his Mormon mother?

    Brandon had been with his girlfriend on and off for a few years but they’d finally called it quits. Whilst walking past the bakery Devon worked at he was instantly smitten and magnetically drawn to him. After plucking up the courage, with help of a pushy friend! Brandon finally got to speak to Devin and their beautiful relationship developed.

    It was just wonderful reading how their relationship grew and how they discovered and explored themselves sëxually together. Their chemistry and intensity jumped out at you and awesome to read. I loved everything about this book, especially how you can find love and acceptance with the right people. We had a bit of drama and angst at the end when Devin parents inevitably came into the picture, however they did get their HEA, surround by love and family 💕 ahhh sigh!!

    I can’t wait to continue on with the series and get more from the other members of Devins rockband and how they find their love!
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  • Zoë Miranda
    4.0 out of 5 stars Discovering Yourself While Finding Your People
    Reviewed in Canada on June 17, 2024
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    Note: There is a short prequel to this series called The Perfect Front Man (Rock U #0.5) that overlaps the first chapter of this story but is told from Axel, the lead guitarist's, POV and includes him "discovering" Devin singing karaoke. It definitely isn't necessary to read it in order to enjoy this book, but it does act as a cute introduction to the Rock U world.

    Audiobook Narration (Finnley Cole), 2024 - 5 stars
    This is the first time I've listened to a book narrated by Finnley Cole and I loved his narration. I enjoyed the slightly different accents he used for the two MCs based on their backgrounds and was easily drawn into the story with the way he delivered the narrative. It was easy to distinguish between the two voices, even if I left off mid-chapter, which shows a lot of talent. The emotion he imbued the characters with, especially during the emotional scenes near the end of the book were poignant and heartfelt. I'm now on the hunt for more books narrated by him because he was such a joy to listen to.

    My only criticism is that there were a couple of softly spoken/whispered passages that were difficult for me to hear because I'm getting older (and deafer) and listen exclusively in my rackety car.

    Story - 4 stars
    1st person, past tense, dual POV

    Devin Taylor (22), Bachelor of Business at ASU, Lead Singer of Knot Me
    Brandon Visser (22), Bachelor of Speech Pathology at ASU

    This is a college-aged bi-awakening story so it contains all the things you would expect from that. Neither trope is a particular favourite of mine, but still the synopsis spoke to me. While I did find the book a little wordy and long with too much internal monologuing it did contain a lot of things I just loved.
    So, in no particular order...
    - I loved the supportive cast of found family that both Devin and Brandon found at ASU. From their respective gal pals, to the band members of Knot Me, and even Devin's bakery bosses, the colourful cast added a lot to the story.
    - I loved Devin's experimentation with his gender expression and seeing him come into his own.
    - I loved how unapologetically talented Devin is both with his studies and his singing.
    - I loved the sexperimentation inherent with a bi-awankening story ;)
    - I loved the exciting and heroic way Devin and Brandon stepped up when they needed to.
    - I loved that Devon's relationship with his mother worked out surprisingly well, but, that said...
    - I hated how Devin's entirely reasonable concerns about the reactions of his ultra conservative and religious family were constantly diminished and brushed aside because, "there is no way a mother cannot love her child". I think the thousands of LGBTQIA+ youth who have been kicked out of their homes or worse would beg to differ and argue that that is an extremely unsafe message. I'm happy it mostly worked out for him, but that, for me, was unfortunately a shocking twist verses the brutal reality I was bracing myself for.
    - I found some of the syntax extremely distracting, for instance, how often rhetorical questions were asked in a character's internal monologue, the odd/overuse of words like, 'snuck', 'freed', 'crept', etc. or how often phones are held to faces.
    - I tired quickly of the endless beer drinking, though maybe I'm just jealous because there's no way my scholarship ass could afford to drink like that when I was in university.

    Recommended; doubly so in audio.

    I originally read this book in KU in March of 2023 and did not write a review.
    I was given an Audible audio code from the author in May of 2024 and voluntarily wrote an honest review.
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  • Vickity-Boo
    4.0 out of 5 stars ❤️🎤🎵
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on November 9, 2024
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    Warning…if you read this book you’ll end up reading all of them!

    I adored this introduction to the band Knot Me. I fell in love with Devin’s character immediately and was on the edge of my seat rooting for the characters.

    Each band member has a story, and through the band you meet so many wonderful connecting characters. Loose yourself and find yourself smiling :)
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  • sarah mitcham
    5.0 out of 5 stars Instant Attraction.
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on April 16, 2023
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    MM, Gender Neutral/Bisexual Awakening, Contemporary, Romance. A tearjerker, page-turner story with a fast moving plot with lots of heat, first times, drama and found family. A great read with sweet, likeable characters. Guaranteed HEA
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