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Only Dead On The Inside: A True Story of Survival [20-30 Minute Read] Kindle Edition

by Toula Mavridou-Messer (Author) Format: Kindle Edition
4.0 4.0 out of 5 stars 16 ratings
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‘A powerful, harrowing and courageous book.’ - Piers Morgan

A shocking true essay of a young girl's abusive childhood from Number 1 bestselling author Toula Mavridou-Messer.

Sexually abused by her mother's partner from the age of five for fifteen years, Toula, a successful television producer, former Senior Head of Celebrity Ambassadors at The Prince's Trust and bestselling author, developed the lifelong condition of severe complex PTSD.

Pulling no punches in this powerful and true account, Toula discusses why she spoke up, what triggered her to speak up when she did and the results of doing so.

Only Dead On The Inside is about the horrors of childhood sexual abuse and the effects that can have not only on the victim but also on those who learn of it.
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    September 12, 2022
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  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B0BF7F39WS
  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ 100 Percent Publishing (September 12, 2022)
  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ September 12, 2022
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • File size ‏ : ‎ 3149 KB
  • Text-to-Speech ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Screen Reader ‏ : ‎ Supported
  • Enhanced typesetting ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • X-Ray ‏ : ‎ Not Enabled
  • Word Wise ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Sticky notes ‏ : ‎ On Kindle Scribe
  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 20 pages
  • Customer Reviews:
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Toula Mavridou-Messer

Toula Mavridou-Messer

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Hi Everyone!

I am a multi-genre author because I am a multi-genre reader.

I love books and have piles of them in every room that are read, being read and to be read! Everything well-written gets my attention. My favourite books include:

The Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls

Jitterbug Perfume by Tom Robbins

The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt

Running With Scissors by Augusten Burroughs

What Katy Did by Susan M. Coolidge

I have written all of my life, or at least from when I was able to hold a pencil. I started typing my first novel at the age of two (on a typewriter I was gifted by Santa) and just never looked back.

At the age of 12, I won a coveted Blue Peter badge for writing a script for the BBC's Grange Hill. The excitement at having my name announced on the show was one of the highlights of my life!

At 15, I was a regular gossip columnist for Gay News Magazine, alongside my lifelong friend (author and screenwriter) Jane Goldman, which started after we interviewed cute boys who were more interested in publicity than us (and gay)! It was a learning curve!

I also worked with a number of national UK newspapers and magazines, providing celebrity snippets - writing a regular column for MIZZ Magazine - as well as having Piers Morgan as a colleague during my brief stint at The Sun, when working with showbiz columnist Rick Sky.

At the ripe old age of 22, I came 2nd in a Write A Blockbuster competition for a national women’s magazine, after writing and submitting a story in the last few hours before the competition closed.

In my mid-twenties, I helped my aforementioned friend Jane Goldman with some research for her bestselling 'The X-Files Books of the Unexplained,' which was fun...and an eye-opener!

I was also a fundamental member of the team behind one of the UK's fastest-selling cookery books. It was a TV tie-in with the BBC's Challenge Anneka for Breakthrough Breast Cancer. We sold over 250,000 copies almost instantly.

Apart from having a passion for writing, I also have an immense passion for photography (mostly nature/wildlife, and travel/landscape) and am proud to share that I am a Saatchi Artist of Recognition for photography.

Before I dedicated my life to creating books, I was a successful Celebrity Producer working on shows on both sides of the Atlantic, after many years running my own Celebrity and Entertainment PR firm, with clients including Eric Clapton, Dame Shirley Bassey and Yes.

Wishing you much enjoyment from reading books, whoever wrote them!

Toula x

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KG Kyriakou
5.0 out of 5 stars An Important Read
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on September 24, 2022
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This book is heartbreaking. No child should ever, ever go through this and the author sharing this with the world is so important. It’s important we know her experience so that we can support our children and countless other victims of this most terrible abuse.

It’s okay to be uncomfortable reading this horrific story and I can’t even imagine what it must have been like for the author to write this but it doesn’t end with her words, she lives it every day.

I only hope she can gain some comfort (if that’s possible at all) in that speaking out can have an impact for others.

Very brave, very strong, very invincible, very inspirational.

An important read.
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Karen Llewellin
5.0 out of 5 stars A must read account of survival
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on September 16, 2022
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Toula's story is an incredible account of what she has survived and how the trauma has shaped her and impacted her entire life.

It is heart breaking that children have to endure such abuse and this account truly opens up the eye's of people such as myself who had the good fortune to have happy childhoods.

The odds are stacked against children in this situation and it's testament to Toula's strength that she was able to endure. But its clear from her account it is a daily battle and it is so true we simply don't know what those around us are battling daily on the inside.

A powerfully written piece that I would highlyrecommend.
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Fiona Seabrook
2.0 out of 5 stars A very short book
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on July 18, 2023
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The book was boring and very short. No real detail just her thoughts. Very disappointed as it was portrayed as a story and it came across as very vague excerpts from a diary. That's not to say I don't feel for the lady
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Anya Harris
5.0 out of 5 stars A story you will never forget.
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on October 28, 2022
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This is a short story about a long life where, as the author says, her biggest success is in still breathing. There are many victims of this kind of thing who are not.
Toula has been enormously brave to speak up in a world where the truth isn’t always welcome and I applaud her and recommend we stand with her and encourage others to share their load. This isn’t something to be carried alone. We can honour them the way she does.
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Jenny Ford
5.0 out of 5 stars Brave And Courageous
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on September 16, 2022
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What a heartfelt read. This must have been incredibly hard for the author to write, I could feel her pain reliving what happened. A very brave and courageous women. Thank you for sharing what was, and is, a very traumatising time for you.
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